Aire Frio

I found this lyrics to the song in a fotolog (www.jotelog.cl/weba_)

No suelo contradecir
solo callar
Hay momentos donde el silencio dice mas
en esta conversacion nadie ganara
cambiate de posicion y vuelve..
no basta pedir perdon
Tambien perdonar
no fue facil aceptar que siempre hubi alguien mas
esa vieja cancion
me hace recordar
cambiate de posision y vuelve ya..
aire frio soledad
un abrazo tibio necesito
la raza me regresa amor
para como cuando peliamos sin pensar
que fuiste tan especial
que lastimados con palabras y son
un juego tan sensillo y tan normal
este circulo no acabara..

I think the same phrase I'm stuck on is wrong on this version, because the whole la raza me regresa kinda doesn't make sense. I'd say it is "abrazame regresa amor"

soo...

Well, you remember how I said I had a 51/100 in my math test? My reposrtcard will be showing a 59... that's pretty low... I can get it up, though...

Also, Today Jonathan told me he has a grush on Naville!! I can't believe it. He talks to her because I told him what to do... Make fun of the teachers. Well, now they talk and I'm freaked that he likes her. She is kinda scary, but I like hangging out with her, not too often, though. He is nice when he's not annoying.

Oh well. A very little while ago, Pepe just left me talking by myself in messenger. I have othing interesting to report. I am not in a very chatty mood, and I am hungry...

Listening to: Wicked the Musical- What is this feeling?
Talking to: nobody
Thinking about: my headache...

Avenue Q

A really good friend of mine mentioned a really funny musical called Avenue Q. It is really really funny. It has puppets and actors that control the puppets right on stage and the songs are so damn funny!! you should all download some!! lutsa love.

Listening to: Avenue Q- Everyone's a little bit Racist
Talk to: Emi, still
Thinking about: racism

Flunkin' Turtle...

Ok, so today has been a very crafty day. I realize I have this nervous tic that I absolutely have to be crafty to be ok when I'm upset by any kind of stupid thing that happens. Today I happened to get my math exam back. 51. Not a pretty number when the most you could get was 100, right? Oh well, I will very possibly be ummm above average in the monthly grade. I just hope to be able to lift it up enough to not end with a stupid 70 average. Math is easyy!!! I like math!! wht's wrong with me?! oh well...

Listening to: The Cure- Love Cats
Talk to: Emi
Thinking about: How to lift my grade

Mom Issues

I think my mom is at htat time in her life. She is becoming elderly, and it had to be through my sister's and my own adolescence. My lil sis is only 14 ans she already has to deal with a moody mother... I am 17 and I deal with a moody "authority figure" and actually maintaining the house a little better than a pig-stall.

My mother is 41. She is still a little young to be having this sorto fo changes, but she sure has all the sinthoms. Could also be the Multiple Sclerosis. You never know with this illnesses that deal with the whole body, including the brain and the rest of the nervous system. I know it must be very hard to not be able to control fully a hand and a leg, but still, it is not reason to slack off the rest of your life... She stopped working and I thought it would be for a short time. We had o means of sustaining ourselves... But my grandparents came to the rescue and now we live off them...

Anyway, then I thought she'd be a housewife. Wrong again. She watched tv all day... It is very frustrating to do all the work around here...

nighty night!!

Listening to: The Ataris- Giving up on love
Talk to: nobody
Thinking about: my boyfriend and the test I have tomorrow at 7:30...

Why Turtle?

It's actually pretty simple... it rhymes (sort of) with my name, or an abreviation of it. I really like it though... gave me a faviorite animal from now on... besides felines in general...

Writting nonsense... 11 54pm and nothing to do... not sleepy, even..

how confidential can I get?

When will this little new blog I plan on telling nobody about be finally discovered and/or ratted out by myself? I hope not soon, because lately some thoughts have been avoiding being said, with a very fair reason... I don't think some of the stuff I think needs to be disscussed with anybody.

One of these issues is the matter of sex. I have been thinking about it a lot lately. It seems normal for a 17 year old girl, right? Well, the thing is, I have a boyfriend from over a year now. I am pretty sure I love him, but waht should I do? I really really love him and I'm pretty sure I want to marry him and have his babies. I'm postponing China for him, for God's sake. It all points to the very obvious choice of what the hell, fuck with him, or rather make love with him, NOW...

But there are still the testimonies of so many people. One of my best girl friends lost her virginity (at 18, may I add) to the guy she loves, but they aren't dating anymore, and that was in like October. Also... a good friend of mine said he did it with his girlfriend and they broke up too. He even involves a baby and miscarriage, but I think that part is BS... They are back together though.

I know that if I'm sure i should be fine, and i'm sure, but what if it's all just way to complicated for us to handle? I mean, it can't be much worse than anything we've done, and I'm sure sex is the only thing on the list we haven't done. I'm sure things wouldn't be akward... or at least I hope.



Listening to: Aire Frio/ Elli Noise
Talking to: nobody :(
Thinking about: I think I'll just go for it... when we have a house to ourselves...

Why a turtle needs a diary

Many things have happened since the last time I had a blog. I had one and I really loved it, but I stopped using it, I don't know why. Now I am a totally different person and a new blog only seems fair. I also started this one because I need to start writting again... i need to be able to have someplace to pour my heart out and to be completely honest and not be judged.

Listening to: a Rocky movie my cousin is watching
Talk to: supposedly to gabriel, though i haven't answered cause i'm not in the mood
Thinking about: how my life is sooooo effed up